Only you know

 After I sang the song, you said "Aapne to mausam hi badal diya..".
That was a beautiful compliment. And if you had not said that, I would not have known.
I would not have felt the joy.

If you had told me that the song did not come right, I would have to believe you.
Live experience is something the audience has, the singer does not. 

The singer can think that he did great. He can have a chip on his shoulder.
Only you know. 

I am always unsure. Only you know.
I can never know.

After I sang "Hoshwalon ko kya khabar", many kind folks offered me words of appreciation.
And each of those words served as insights for me. Another room lit up.
I really have no clue how well the song came out.

I can judge a few things - my voice did not crack, timing was right. But the overall result is something only you know. 

I am like a beggar receiving alms.



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